Take Seven

Sometimes I get somewhat frustrated. I sit and think I wish I would've started earlier, back when I was my only responsibility. A lot of times things come up, whether it be auditions, call backs or shooting and I want to be able to do it all.
I sometimes want to be that struggling actress who has a waiting job with flexible hours or other waitresses that can cover my shift when something just so happens to pop up. I think of how much easier I'd have it if I could see a casting in Florida or Tennessee and up and go because I don't have anything else going on at the moment. If I were my only responsibility, I'd submit to tons of roles, even in NY or LA because I'd have that savings account padded a little thicker to where I could afford to work as a local for the time period. The fact of the matter is, I have two little bodies that also depend on me.
Being a working mother who is trying to live a dream is a very hard somebody to be. But won't he do it...I'm managing! I can't go to every audition and every shooting date won't be convenient for me because I'm not a waitress, I'm a supervisor in the Technology Solutions department of a Health Management Company. I can't afford to call out of work to make $8-$10 an hour working as an extra when my job's base pay is more than the time and a half that being an extra pays and kids cost money.
I can't do everything all the time, but like I said previously, what's meant for me is for me. Even with the limitations I have, I've been able to work and land speaking roles for several independent projects, I've audition for Tyler Perry (well Rhavynn Drummer  actually, but same difference), I've attended red carpet premieres and took lessons from Carl Payne (Cole from Martin) and David Talbert (First Sunday and Baggage Claim).
I've accomplished so much and I'm so proud and I know I have so much more in me so I have so much further to go. I can't stop because of those two little bodies. So what can be seen as my limitations are two of my biggest motivations and without them I may not have been on this road in the first place.

EJ


This video speaks volums...it's not the whole video.  He goes on to explain the ingredients being setbacks, failures, anger, heartbreak, etc (things that you would look at in a negative light) when mixed together make you into the person you are in the position that you are in.  They make your life what it is...something beautiful.  My children made me who I am at this moment - a GO-GETTER!!